Janas World

well another day of tears and confusion and prayer. I wish I could understand how a woman/girl could just turn her back on her beautiful child and never look back. Especially in the time we are in right now with the legal battle going on. We need Nikki here more than she will ever know, but to her I am trying to control her...ugh!!! It's been a long week of tears and prayer. I just want this court case to be over so i know Tyler is going to be protected and then Nikki can have a nice life...I won't bother her, beings that is what she wants right now. Someday I hope she grows up and sees what she has done. I love her more than she will ever know, but she is so mean and hateful. And then to top it off her boyfriend emailed me too and told me that I should really think about what kind of Mother I am????? HELLO!!! This kid does not have a clue. I told him until you have walked in my shoes for the past 4 years don't condemn me as a mother, because you do NOT have a clue about our lives. He has only known my daughter for over a month...and in that time punched a hole in her wall, cuz he was mad at her.....how long will it be before it's her face????? Kids are a true test from God! Thank God for my blog so I can vent a bit..and no one has to ever know my thoughts.